The holiday season is upon us.  I spent this one alone again since Robert and Mom are no longer here.  This marks the second major holiday without them.  I will never forgive myself for allowing us to lose so much time, Darin, when we could have been much closer.  I only wish things were different but it’s too late now.  I hope you know that I always loved you, in spite of my stupid ways and I will never forgive myself for my lack of good sense.  I love you and miss you, Darin.  Barry