Home

   

Journal
Vilma Dopson Harnamji
December 31, 1932 - December 25, 2006


I love and miss You, Mom

Time goes by but the hurt doesn’t go away, Mom.  I realize that each person handles loss a different way and I am just a mess.  Losing You and Robert in such a short span of time was doubly hard to bear, however, I would still be a mess no matter when I lost either of you.  I love and miss You, Mom.  Barry

Started by Barry Harnamji on August 25, 2015

I love and miss You, Mom.

Mom, I’ve been going through some major emotional challenges lately.  I’ve been hearing your voice in my head of some of the things you used to say.  Your expressions, your laugh, your wisdom – all of these things and so much more I expected to always be here have gone forever.  I still feel lost.  I’m always grasping for something to make me feel safe or good or right.  Perhaps I still don’t know anything.  I love and miss You, Mom.  Barry

Started by Barry Harnamji on July 25, 2015

I miss you so very much Mom

My depression has grown worse over the past several months Mom.  Nothing feels right even after all this time.  I love and miss You, Mom.  Barry

Started by Barry Harnamji on June 25, 2015

I miss you Mom

Mom, I’ve been a mess for quite some time and it’s often difficult to make sense of it all.  I look at your photos and it’s not easy for me to smile at them.  I still don’t understand so many things even after all these years.  I love and miss You, Mom.  Barry

Started by Barry Harnamji on May 26, 2015

One hundred months

One hundred months is a very long time Mom.  I hate this life without you.  I miss you every day that goes by.  This miserable life doesn’t seem to be getting any better.  I keep trying to do the right things but I usually wind up being more stressed than ever expected.  I don’t know what I am supposed to be doing.  I don’t know who I am.  I long to be able to call and talk to you.  I miss you and Love You forever, Mom.  Barry

Started by Barry Harnamji on April 26, 2015

I miss you Mom

It’s now ninety-nine months since I saw you Mom.  Although I know how much time has gone by, I am always surprised when I say it out loud or type it.  I miss you beyond words.  I miss you and Love You forever, Mom.  Barry

Started by Barry Harnamji on March 25, 2015

Mother’s Day May 12, 2013 - one day late
Mom, it is still not easy for me to not think about Mother’s Day when it seems that everyone else is celebrating it.  I know all of the grief and my depression are what keeps me from thinking differently but it really isn’t something I have any control over.  I only know that I miss you so much.  Since I lost You and Robert, I am disconnected from both families.  I don’t know where I belong.  I’m sorry for not taking better care of you Mom.  I love you and miss you, Mom.  Barry.
Started by Barry Harnamji on May 13, 2013

Christmas Means Nothing Any Longer

This is the 7th Christmas without You, Mom.  The holiday season this year has been exceptionally painful for me.  It started way before Thanksgiving.  I can’t fathom a guess as to why it’s been so different so I won’t even try.  It’s still difficult to be around people and truly enjoy anything.  The longer I remain in this existence the stronger the pain becomes.  I miss you Mom, more that you will ever know, or, perhaps you know.  I think of you every day.  I miss you and love you forever, Mom.  Barry

Started by Barry Harnamji on December 25, 2012

Another Thanksgiving holiday has come and gone
Another Thanksgiving holiday has come and gone, Mom.  I miss spending time with you.  Robert and I looked forward to spending the holiday dinners with you.  Now I have neither one of you to hold on to.  This is not this life is supposed to be.  My grief over losing both you and Robert hasn't waned.  In fact, this holiday season has been unusually difficult for me.  I'm sorry for everything, Mom.  I love you, forever.  Barry
Started by Barry Harnamji on November 23, 2012

Time passes wthout interruption

It’s been 5 years and 6 months since I lost you, Mom.  I see you in photos; I see you in my mind; I often see your likeness when I look at myself in the mirror.  I’ve been going through another cycle of depression lately – not really sure when one ends and another begins though.  I miss you more than you will ever know.  I suppose that I will never find the answers to the any of the questions I have.  I love you and miss you, Mom.  Barry.

Started by Barry Harnamji on June 26, 2012

[1]   2   3   4  
About Us | FAQ | Take a Tour | Create a Memorial Website | Pricing | Contact Us |